Ill Give you Hell;

All I want is you. I want to travel with you. I want to laugh, cry, think, scream, and be with you. You make me want to be a better person when I’m around you. It’s almost like I have to be near you just to feel more like myself. It’s like I’m addicted to your existence. You mean everything and nothing to me all at once. I don’t know how to explain how I feel and I think thats a good thing in some cases. But whatever I’m feeling, I know it’s real, and it’s there. Some people dont know what true happiness is because theyre always searching for it. I wasn’t searching when you found me. You’re that one thing that always keeps me holding on, you make me believe that there’s always hope. And I believe you’re that person that I want to grow old with.

Sad part is, you don’t even know this is how I feel.

You know what pisses me off. When you fucking sit there and tell people that I’m a lying slut and all this other shit. But yet, you’ll sit there and act like my best friend and you’ll tell me how much “fun” we used to have and how you miss the good times. Well no sir, fuck you. If you want to tell my friends that you “eh, kinda want her to burn in hell still” so fuck you man. For everything you stand for and for all the shit you’ve done to me and for all the shit you caused me. You still mean a lot to me, but it hurts knowing that you feel that way and that you want to be an asshole about everything. You can talk your shit all you want, and I’ll just keep my mouth shut because I’m better than that love.

I really wish you were here with me, and i wish you could see how much you mean to me. And God did i wish you meant every word you said to me like you say to her. You told me once that i meant the world to you. You promised me youd never leave my side and that we’d always be best friends. But you left me. Everything turned to shit because thats what you really wanted all along. It always had to be your way or you werent happy. But you always told me you just wanted to see me happy, do i look happy to you? Because i sure as hell dont feel happy. All i ever wanted was for you to be there for me like i was there for you, for you to say what you mean and actually mean it. But that’d be asking too much from you. I cant even tell you how much youve hurt me and no matter how many times you fuck me over ill still be there waiting in the same spot you left me. Someone told me i was too forgiving, but the thing is, im not. I hold so many grudges and if you fuck up once then youre done. But with you, its different. You were my best friend and i love you so much, you meant the world to me and id do anything to have you back in my life. I wish you werent such an asshole. And i wish you werent dating her. You changed so much, and because of her. Things could and never will be the same between us. But i only want one thing, and thats you to say you want me back in your life.

                                 Ex Best Friend <3.

I am so gay. I love vagina.